Showing posts with label my life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label my life. Show all posts

Sunday, June 5, 2011

let's talk about poop

Our main reason for deciding to do cloth diapers for Liam was cost. After I moved from full time to part time at work, we needed to cut expenses, find more ways to stretch our money and to save more. Hence, I began researching cloth diapering. There are many things I never imagined I would do/say/try before becoming a parent. But that is for another post. Cloth diapering was certainly on that list, if not at the very top. Previous to having a child, I even mocked/half-judged my best friend for giving it a shot. Now I wish I had been more supportive, since she did not continue with cloth diapering after a short go of it. Many of my friends now use cloth diapers on their children and many other friends of mine have asked about it. So below I've outlined our system and noted things I've learned along the way.

Cost: Nate and I estimate, by the time Liam is out of diapers (sometime around 3 years or before), we'll have saved roughly $1,940. That might not seem like a ton over 3 years, and I'm sure some would gladly pay that amount for the sake of convenience. However, on a weekly basis, that puts $15 back in our budget. With all the other expenses having an infant incurs, $15 back into our wallet each week was very welcome and needed!

Names/Acronyms: It amazed me how overwhelmed I got just beginning my search online. I felt like it was a special club. Finally I was able to find them all listed out for me. I also put some of the terms in acronyms in parenthesis throughout this post.

Types: There are many different types of cloth diapering (CD) systems out there. The one that's right for you depends solely on your lifestyle and preferences. I found this site very helpful in explaining the positives and negatives of the most common diapering systems.

Initial Stash: For our initial stash, after purchasing a few other brands and experimenting with those, we chose Best Bottom Diapers from Nicki's Diapers online. We found this system the fastest, easiest and most convenient and purchased 10 covers and 24 liners. This quantity means we wash diapers about every 2 days or less. (We also tried The Flip by Cotton Babies and one diaper from GroVia.)


Reason #1: Overnight Leaks.
Since Liam pees like a horse at night, we needed something that wouldn't leak. Even disposables couldn't contain his peeing overnight. Best Bottom never leaked. Not even overnight. Some people only cloth diaper during the day and switch to a disposable (sposie) for night time because of the leaking problem. But we never had that problem once we tried Best Bottom.

Reason #2: Drying Time.
Although an all in one diaper would seem to be the obvious first choice for convenience, the fact that they were harder to get clean and the drying time was longer, was a drawback for us. We wanted something quick and easy, especially since we decided we were gonna wash/dry them at home so we didn't have to pay for a diaper service.

Reason #3: Reusable Cover
We very much liked the idea that all we needed to do was wipe out a used (with pee) cover with a wet wipe, snap in a new insert and go! This meant less laundry as often and also meant the covers would last longer because they would not wear down as fast due to many cycles in the washing machine. The cover is also very thin and lightweight which means it air dries in hours!

Reason #4: One Size Cover (OS)
Many of the diapering systems we researched were pre-fit. Which means you have to buy the size diaper your baby is at. Then when they grow out, you have to buy the next size up, etc. One size covers fit your baby from infancy thru potty training. This helped us save money.

Reason #5: Diaper Inserts
The Best Bottom system requires that you buy three different sized, snap-in inserts depending on your baby's size. Although this was a slight draw-back at first for us because it meant spending more money each time Liam grew to the next size, it also meant the diapers could remain very trim and small. (Many other diapering systems leave baby's with the biggest bum ever! This is also the reason we did not go with The Flip. Flip diapers do not taper in like Best Bottom diapers do.) Another reason it was only a small drawback is because there are only 3 sizes max we'd need to buy. In addition, we loved that the inserts snap into the cover. After trying The Flip (cloth insert doesn't snap into the waterproof cover liner), and with all the energy Liam has, we were sure all that movement would cause some problems. In the least we thought it would be more difficult at diaper changes when he became really squirmy. Which we found out later, we were glad we chose Best Bottom for the snap-in for that very reason!!

Reason #6: Cover with extra gusset
Time and time again, the extra gusset has prevented a major blow out.

Accessories:
There are many cloth diapering accessories that help to make the whole cloth diapering process a bit easier. We use the following…

- 2 Diaper Pail Liners (for soiled diapers at home)
There are two options for storing soiled diapers at home until you're ready to wash them. Putting them in a dry diaper pail or soaking them in a wet diaper pail. We use the dry diaper pail option because Liam's room is upstairs and again, it was easier and more convenient than dragging a pail of water up and down the stairs all the time. I haven't researched the wet pail method, so I can't talk knowledgeably about it. However, with the dry pail, all we did was get a foot pedal garbage can from Target at the appropriate height and lined it with a diaper pail liner. We got two so that we could use one, while the other was in the wash. It washes along with the diapers, then air dries with the covers. You don't want to put it in the dryer because the waterproof lining will melt (same with the diaper covers).

- 2 Medium Size Wet Bags (for soiled diapers on the go)
These are great for on the go. Again, one for the wash and one for the diaper bag. Medium seems to be perfect for an all-day outing.

- Rock In Green Detergent
Cloth diapers must be washed with detergent that is free of ALL additives. Otherwise, the brighteners/additives, etc. stick to the cloth diaper and over time the absorbency decreases. We get Rock In Green locally from the new Cotton Babies store here in Vancouver. I am addicted to that store!

- Disposable/Flushable Diaper Liners
In the beginning when you're solely breast feeding or formula feeding your baby, their poos are completely water soluable and there's no need to rinse the diapers before washing them. However, once you start introducing solid foods, then you get (you guessed it) solid poos! Or at least more solid than before and usually more sticky. This is where either flushable liners and/or a diaper sprayer (attached to the toilet) come in handy. We have yet to buy a diaper sprayer but it's on my list. The liners I linked above (Bummis) are the brand I prefer because they are really soft. I tried Imsi Vimsi first but they were just too scratchy for Liam's sensitive skin (he got that from his dad). Diaper liners are nice because all I need to do is dump the poo with the liner in the toilet and flush. If the liner weren't there, it would stick to the diaper and I'd need to dunk it in the toilet multiple times to get the tough stuff off the diaper before running it through the wash. Dunking is no fun!! Hence, we use the liners. (Update 11-27-12: We solely use a diaper sprayer now.)

Reusable Cloth Wipes:
You don't have to use cloth wipes if you decide to cloth diaper your child(ren). I am currently using disposable wipes. However, I do own enough cloth wipes to solely use cloth wipes. There are a couple of reasons why cloth wipes are handy. The biggest incentive to me, is the ease of using them when on the go away from home. I know that sounds opposite what you might think at first. But think about it, when changing a diaper, what's the first thing you do with the wipe once you've used it? Yep, you put it inside the disposable, wrap it up and toss it. Many a time I've found disposable wipes in my dryer because of it. Instead of trying to break that habit and dealing with having to sort your wipes from your cloth diapers (which is what I'm doing now), why not put them all in the same place and wash them all together? It's also easier on the go when you aren't changing your child right next to a toilet and/or garbage can. Wether it's easier or not also depends on wether your child is eating solids or not. You'll need a toilet to dispose of the solids if so. If your baby is exclusively breastfed (EBF) however, you don't need a nearby toilet.

So then why, you ask, am I not using cloth wipes? Well, when we first started cloth diapering Liam at around 4 months, we also decided to try out cloth wipes for the reasons I wrote about above. Unfortunately, I tried a cloth wipes solution that didn't bode well with Liam's skin and he got a rash. He's like his daddy and has very sensitive skin. We took a break from cloth wipes until his rash cleared up. When we decided to try cloth wipes again however, Liam was 6 months and by then we had started introducing solid foods into his diet. This is when his diaper rash really started acting up again, as a result of the foods he was eating. We didn't want to try cloth wipes again until that was all clear, and now just have yet to try it again. When we do, I'm not going to use a cloth wipes solution at all, and instead I'm just gonna try using water only. (Update 11/27/12: We are now using only cloth wipes and Liam is potty training with the Best Bottom Trainers.)

In the end, we are very satisfied and impressed by our cloth diapering system. Yes, it's a little messy at times. But if you're honest with yourself, you'll realize that no matter what, when dealing with babies, you're bound to get peed and/or pooped on at some point anyway. It's really not all that bad (another thing I never thought I'd say).

P.S. Even if you're using disposables you're still supposed to dump the poo in the toilet before tossing the diaper in the garbage.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

frenzy

i found this artist recently through pandora and found myself thumbing up every song of hers that came up, so i bought her album last night.
i really like the sound of her "ashes and wine" song so as i always do, i listened closer to the lyrics. i can identify with this section from the song.
all the same,
i don’t want mud-slinging games
it’s just a shame
to let you walk away
is the
re a chance,
a fragment of light
at the end of the tunnel,
a reason to fight
is there a chance
you may change your mind
or are we ashes and wine?
one cell in the sea
listen to a clip from itunes
recently i've found myself begging for some hope of reconciliation in the relationships in my life that seem to stay torn no matter what i do. no matter how much i want things to be better. there's not much i can do if the other party doesn't want it. i guess i just need to accept it. but it just hurts.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

weird

i have to say, this bumper sticker weirds me out. i don't get it. i'm also not quite sure why it weirds me out, but it's just an odd bumper sticker. who walks around proclaiming "I love my wife!"? Is it just me? after looking up close, the text in the lower right says promise keepers. well, there you have it. weird. don't get me wrong, i don't have a problem per say with promise keepers... i don't really know much about them. but still. what a weird bumper sticker!

Sunday, September 23, 2007

lost and tired

we sang this song at ascent tonight. this is exactly how i feel. lost and tired. i wonder sometimes if some people are just prone to feel things deeper and longer than others. i think i'm one of them. and i think i've been holding on. holding on so strong my knuckles are white. i can't say i know what i've been holding onto, but i have. and i can tell because it's making me tired. i feel broken down by failed attempts at making things right in relationships that just aren't going the way i feel they should. broken down and tired by things i can't change. broken down by brokenness. but i'm a fighter. and i'm incredibly stubborn. so i keep holding on.

maybe all i need to do is nothing. stop fighting. stop holding on. stop trying. stop fixing. stop keeping it together. and just let the light shine in.

I've been holding on
I've been holding on
All that is inside me
Screams to come back home

If you feel lost
If you feel lost
Sing along
If you feel tired
If you feel tired
Sing along

If you feel lost and tired
This is your song

I've been broken down
I've been broken down
I ain't giving up
Love will come back around

Shine Your light
Shine it down on us
Let Your rescue come for us
We long to love

Shine Your light
Shine it down on us
Let Your rescue come for us now

And if you feel lost, sing along
And if you feel tired, sing along

Oh my God
Shine Your light on us
That we might live

Robbie Seay Band
Give Yourself Away
Listen to a clip from itunes

Thursday, September 6, 2007

forget

it's amazing to me how two consecutive days can feel so very different from each other. i constantly go in and out of this...
Feeling like i can't forgive but i want to
It's like i don't know how to live i'm afraid to
I used to think take them as they come without hesitations no
Now it's like my head is filled with lies and persuasions

As the sun begins to fall i hear her calling out to me she's sayin' hurry it's one more day gone

What i wouldn't give just to forget
So i can remember how to live again
I wanna live again

I am feeling dissonant and distracted
The toxic chemicals are spilling in my head and they're bleeding deadly reactions

And as the moon begins to rise he shows me all the colors that i'm hiding i'm hiding myself

What i wouldn't give just to forget
What i wouldn't give to get some rest
So i can remember how to live again
I wanna live again

Am i desperately losing this fight
When i should really be choosing my flight
Take me now

What i wouldn't give just to forget
What i wouldn't give to get some rest
So i can remember how to live again
I wanna live again

What i wouldn't give just to forget
What i wouldn't give to get some rest
What i wouldn't give just to forget
So i can remember how to live

Holly Brook
Like Blood Like Honey
Listen to a clip from itunes

Monday, July 30, 2007

holy crap

so, this whole month almost went by without a blog post! i've had a lot of stuff to post about but when i've had a chance to post all i've wanted to do was sit in front of the boob-tube and veg. i'm currently addicted to what not to wear. and i'm learning i've been breaking all the rules. terribly.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

considering barack

i've been considering senator barack obama for the coming presidential race. i stumbled across this speech from his wife, michelle at a women's conference. check it out here. it's a good speech.

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

toddlers

real quick. this last weekend we went camping in the cove palisades state park in oregon. it was awesome. usually we camp on the oregon coast but we wanted to do something a little different this time. well, i have to say there was alot more different going on - more than just the location which brought heat. nate and i were immersed immediately into life with toddlers. wow. is all i have to say. and maybe two more words come to mind also - birth control. ;-) here are some snapshots of the little critters.



Sunday, May 20, 2007

top ten

inspired by charlie from LOST (pathetic that i'm inspired by a fictional tv character) i'm listing the top ten best moments of my life so far. it might seem easy for some, but for me this was very difficult. i tried to list things as if i were about to die. not to be morbid, but to see what i'd come up with. because it seems to me that if i knew i were about to die, i would be less likely to think of superficial stuff and more likely to think of the real, truly life changing stuff.

meeting my maker finding i can know Him on a deep and very personal level. realizing just how gracious He really is, that He could sacrifice so much to love such a big headed and arrogant idiot. me.

finding new heights church my church has really become my family. here i realized i can be myself, He sees everything. all my faults, my screwups, even who i am at the very core, the stuff that i would be mortified anyone saw. and with all that, God still wants me. and better yet, He desires me on a level no one on this earth ever will. and i can't even begin to wrap my brain around it.

meeting nate kissing him for the first time and our wedding day. i am truly blessed to have met nate. he puts up with my blonde moments (i have many). he's patient as i learn how to be wrong sometimes. he extremely kind, detoted, loyal and as corny as it sounds, he is very wise. i've never known a person who thinks through things quite like him. he balances me out.

raising tony having the wonderful opportunity to raise my brother. tony has been a blessing in our lives. watching him grow and become an outstanding adolescent has been awesome. the transformation he's been through since he came to our home is amazing. yes, he's still annoying. but he's simply fulfilling his job description of a teen. it'll pass in due time. ;-)

lost i'll never forget when/where i was when i got the call that our best friends hadn't been heard from since they went out hiking on memorial day. that was one of the scariest experiences of my life. waiting for them to be rescued. feeling so helpless. thinking i would never see them again. horrible. i can't imagine what it was like for their family. and although they were rescued and I heard stories of what it was like, i can only imagine what it really must have been like for them. realizing those days could be their last...this was definitely one of the most memorable moments of my life.

girl-friends there is an incredible value in good friendships. i remember when i first began to realize how valuable it was to have a girl-friend i could talk to about anything. for some time i thought all i needed was my husband. and for the most part i do share just about everything with nate. but there are some things that i keep just between me and my best friend and times when i know, she is the only one that will get what i'm trying to say. it was also then i realized my husband couldn't possibly be expected to be, do and fill everything for me. he will never be able to fill the "girlfriend" hole and i shouldn't expect him to.

discovering camping, hiking & enjoying the outdoors. i'm so grateful to live in the northwest. God is so creative. i love it that i'm able to work in a creative field and create. it makes me feel close to my creator. spending time outdoors in the middle of His creation helps me refocus on the important stuff in life.

moving out i moved out (was kicked out) of my home at 18. in hindsight this was the best thing God ever orchestrated in my life. (well, who am i to know if it was the best thing ever) but looking back i know He was in it. leaving home allowed me to see my parents for what they really were. damaged and not perfect. it wasn't until i got out of the situation and years later that i began to see what was really going on in my home at that time.

philippines i went to the philippines on a missions trip when i was 15. i can't begin to describe how impactful this trip was for me. i wouldn't recommend the group i went with or the reason i went. however simply in going, it extremely expanded my world view. i feel especially fortunate to have it opened to me at such a young age. i'm definitely an advocate of travel out of your home country. i'm even more of an advocate that it happen when you're young.

Mt. St. Helens a pilot friend of ours flew nate and i for a ride over Mt. St. Helens. i'll never forget that view. i got a little air sick but it was certainly worth it!

Saturday, April 21, 2007

cs3

cs3i'm really excited about cs3! i can't wait to get my hands on it. which will be soon! as i was checking out the product on the adobe website, and watching their little promo video, the last part really hit me. the speaker in the short clip said:

"When we do graphic design, it is a visual communication. But it's not only about the visual. It's all about like 5 different senses. The question is thru visual means, how can we make them taste something? How can we hear something? Or like how can we feel something? Really, the bottom line is if you can touch someone's heart."

i knew right then i had to hold onto that quote as a reminder this is what i do. it's not just about the visual. it's about touching people's hearts. and with the greatest message of hope ever told.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

virginia tech

this weekend at church the message was on 1 Chronicles 21:1-27. The part of the story of King David's life when he was leading his people incorrectly and they followed. to sum it up, David chose to rely on his own resources and take a census to see what he could do to protect himself instead of relying wholly on God. it all started in verse one where it says:

"Satan rose up against Israel and incited David to take a census of Israel."

after yesterday and the killings at virginia tech i am reminded how much i do indeed and truly believe that satan exists and is opposed to each and every one of us, personally.

then after David realized he'd made a big mistake, he cries out to God...

“I am in deep distress. Let me fall into the hands of the LORD, for His mercy is very great; but do not let me fall into the hands of men.”
1 Chronicles 21:13

beautiful. when i read that passage it hit me. David knew God personally. David knew that even though he'd screwed up he would still rather be put back in the hands of God to recieve whatever consequences were coming then have God put him into "the hands of men." God even gave David three choices. 3 years of famine. 3 months of being attached and killed by enemies, or 3 days of the "sword of the LORD". just think about that for a minute. he chose the "sword of the LORD". the LORD he knew and believed created heaven and earth, the LORD he knew could inflict way more pain and suffering on him than any human being. yet because he knew God personally. he knew "His mercy is very great;..." and he knew God could but would not harm him as much as men could and would.

and to me the virginia tech killings remind me of how true i feel that is. and how much we're all very, terribly and horribly broken. and I'm one of them.

Lord, I want to go home. i don't want to experience any more pain. i don't want to see any more pain. and i don't want to cause any more pain. how much longer do we have to stay here?

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

brief

1. big party for nate on friday.
2. still working on getting old posts back to this site.
3. been contemplating good friends.
4. have a new look.

Thursday, March 22, 2007

back (kinda)

well. i'm back. sorta. i got it all back but at a different address. so i'll continue to update here. but if you want to read anything previous (2005 - Feb 2007) you have to go here. i'm a little discouraged and not motivated to blog lately because of all the hassle. even after getting it back. but i think it will be short-term. i think i'm ready for a new look. whaddya say?

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

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this is dummy text for a dummy post while i wait for blogger support to get back to me. i switched to the new google/blogger. then, accidentally deleted the google account that had my gmail account as my blogger username and email attached to it. and now it's gone. so i'm now currently trying to get it all back through blogger suppport. you can track my progess here.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

mother

bethhart

every time i listen to this song i wanna cry. the very guts of my soul wishes i could say this of my mom. there've been other "mom" tribute songs out there i've heard. i even dedicated one of those "mom" songs to my mother in law who's been the best mom i could ever ask for. but this one is different. beth hart's voice does something to me. i don't know how to explain it. when i listen to this song my heart longs for a past i will never, ever call my own. my reality is a past without a mom like this. i only hope i can learn from all that and be this song for my children someday.


Mother may I, and I would say
Yes sweet baby take it away
It won't be long
Just just remember
That powerful is the woman in you
And stay true now
And she'd come to me
When fire & water was gone
To caress the empty with a song
Saying why cry for anger
That bullet the sky
Just remember
And I'll remember mama
I'll get by

And I know my face
Seems crazed & wild
But I got her eyes
The mama's child am I
She's blessed with grace
Is smooth as a line
And when I shade
She helps me shine
And she comes to me
when there's nothing I believe
And holds me so high yes I am free
Saying why hold the anger
It won't let you fly
Just remember
And I'll remember
Cause mama, mama
I'll get by

Confused by my own illusion
She said that it's only my pride
And even the simplest solutions
Still won't heal my mind
So I'll remember
I'll remember
I'll get by
~Beth Hart - Screamin' For My Supper
Click here to listen to a clip from itunes.




Tuesday, January 2, 2007

christmas

christmas06

we had the entire week of christmas off this year. i'm the one that likes to sleep in, nate likes to get up early and he's constantly working on something. and it's usually something he thinks he supposed to do, not something fun. it seems like it's constantly raining here in the northwest as well. i like slow mornings where i don't have to rush, i can stay in my pj's and have a nice pancake or waffle breakfast with my family. those moments are few and far between but i can always be assured i will get just that every christmas at least. and i did this year too and it was wonderful. (except omelettes instead of waffles) nate, tony and i spent the night at nate's parents and woke up ready to eat freshly-made cinnamon rolls and omelettes.


Can’t you see it’s just raining?
There ain’t no need to go outside
But baby you hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song it’s meant to keep you
From doing what you’re supposed to
Like waking up too early
Maybe we could sleep in
I’ll make you banana pancakes
Pretend like it’s the weekend now
And we could pretend it all the time
Can’t you see that it’s just raining
There ain’t no need to go outside
But just maybe, hala ka ukulele
Mama made a baby
I really don’t mind the practice
Because you’re my little lady
Lady, lady love me
Because I love to lay here lazy
We could close the curtains
Pretend like there’s no world outside
And we could pretend it all the time
Can’t you see that it’s just raining
There ain’t no need to go outside
Ain’t no need, ain’t no need
Can’t you see, can’t you see
Rain all day and I don’t mind
Telephone singing, ringing, it’s too early
Don’t pick it up
We don’t need to
We got everything we need right here
And everything we need is enough
It’s just so easy
When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Do we really need to pay attention to the alarm
Wake up slow, wake up slow
But baby, you hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song it’s meant to keep you
From doing what you’re supposed to
Like waking up too early
Maybe we could sleep in
I’ll make you banana pancakes
Pretend like it’s the weekend now
And we could pretend it all the time
Can’t you see that it’s just raining
There ain’t no need to go outside
Ain’t no need, ain’t no need
Rain all day and I really really really don’t mind
Can’t you see, can’t you see
We’ve got to wake up slow
~Jack Johnson - Banana Pancakes
Click here to listen to a clip from itunes.


then came the presents! this is some of what i got for christmas...

christmas06
christmas06

ya. it was a good christmas! ;-)

Sunday, November 26, 2006

hope



Hope In Hard Times is the teaching series we just finished at my church currently. "Waiting In Hope" was the main theme a couple weeks ago, and it was really challenging for me. i'm not a patient person. waiting and not knowing is not something i like. it drives me insane actually. i really have a hard time with the unknown, unplanned and unexpected. i hate surprises. i hate not knowing what's in front of me. i'm a planner. a crazy planner, and a disorganized one at that (don't ask). but that's me. uncertainty? ugh. yuck. yuck. yuck. i don't like not knowing...that's why this talk and even a random blog post find, really hit home.

for the talk series, we've been going through 1 Peter. this week was 1 Peter 4:7-19. in the first few verses, peter talks about what it means to be a christian in relationship with other people especially during conflict and "hard times" with them. peter's challenge to us is to continue to love and serve those in your community when you're going thru tuff stuff but especially when going thru tuff stuff caused by other people. not just people "out there," but people close to home. people that are supposed to love and support you through thick and thin but currently aren't for whatever reason.

after stumbling across this post from Nae, i really felt it mirrored closely what peter was saying also but from another angle. some of it that especially hit home, i've pasted below:
"As my friend Allan says, we must be willing to protect our friendships, and make sure that we don’t loose them over things that can be worked out. I realize that sometimes we might not say the complete truth because we either are not sure if the feelings or attraction are worth a penny or sometimes we are just afraid to hurt the other person so we figure it’s better to tell them half truths, other times we blatantly lie or remain silent thinking we are protecting the person or may be protecting ourselves…trust me, I’ve applied these reasons often times. In reality when the actual truth unfolds at a latter time, it causes even more pain than if everything was laid out at the very beginning. What honesty does is that it lets the person or people involved know what is actually going on…even if that’s the only thing that it accomplishes. I highly doubt that it does anyone any good, especially living in a small community, to live half-truth lives or protect ourselves by not speaking the truth. Now, I’m not advocating for people to always broadcast everything that is going on every time they think they like someone or something along those lines, but I think the minute we realize it might create some tension, it should be brought up for the sake of protecting our friendships. What honesty doesn’t do is make the hurt or disappointment less real, in fact it does the complete opposite. At the end of the day, if the truth is out there, each person is responsible for what they do with it. Along these same lines, I think the people around us should also play an important role to make sure that we are living honestly with our intentions, feelings and actions."


i feel like i was challenged by peter but also by nae. nae challenged and reminded me that relationships require honesty. peter challenged me to continually love and serve even in the midst of conflict and struggle with other people, even the ones that are afraid to bring their concerns up. i truly agree that it makes things worse and damages relationships to avoid conflict rather than confronting it "...I think the minute we realize it might create some tension, it should be brought up for the sake of protecting our friendships."

i pray that the moment i realize i might have an issue with someone or something, that i approach my feelings with that person honestly and without delay...because i've felt the damaging effects of the opposite and it hurts.

Monday, September 4, 2006

trip

Go here to see what i've been up to; our vacation this past week. nate biked the entire oregon coast, from the astoria bridge on the washington side clear thru to the california border! me and tony along with alicia and kurt all tagged along for the fun of it. nate biked with tim (alicia's hubby) and tim's friend, Jason. they rocked. i'm really proud of nate....i for sure couldn't have done it.

Wednesday, August 9, 2006

life

i love how my personal life, my work life and my family life all blend together. it may seem odd to some but to me, i relish in it. i love it. i'm not exactly sure why either. but i do. maybe it's because i never experienced family growing up. or maybe it's simply because i'm extroverted. who knows. but i don't know how i'd live without those worlds touching each other.

my second to the youngest sister came to hang out with me at a summer festival event today. that made me so happy. she's quirky. and she knows it. she likes to try and embarrass me. and she usually does. but i love that she came. she got to meet people in my world. that made me happy. so my second to the youngest sis, if you're reading this, know that you made me very happy today. and just for good measure, thanks for sharing your tentative, new-found perspective on the "mom" thing with me. i hope it sticks. ;-)

this was for you girl. i love you.