Sunday, September 23, 2007

lost and tired

we sang this song at ascent tonight. this is exactly how i feel. lost and tired. i wonder sometimes if some people are just prone to feel things deeper and longer than others. i think i'm one of them. and i think i've been holding on. holding on so strong my knuckles are white. i can't say i know what i've been holding onto, but i have. and i can tell because it's making me tired. i feel broken down by failed attempts at making things right in relationships that just aren't going the way i feel they should. broken down and tired by things i can't change. broken down by brokenness. but i'm a fighter. and i'm incredibly stubborn. so i keep holding on.

maybe all i need to do is nothing. stop fighting. stop holding on. stop trying. stop fixing. stop keeping it together. and just let the light shine in.

I've been holding on
I've been holding on
All that is inside me
Screams to come back home

If you feel lost
If you feel lost
Sing along
If you feel tired
If you feel tired
Sing along

If you feel lost and tired
This is your song

I've been broken down
I've been broken down
I ain't giving up
Love will come back around

Shine Your light
Shine it down on us
Let Your rescue come for us
We long to love

Shine Your light
Shine it down on us
Let Your rescue come for us now

And if you feel lost, sing along
And if you feel tired, sing along

Oh my God
Shine Your light on us
That we might live

Robbie Seay Band
Give Yourself Away
Listen to a clip from itunes

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

i heard this song at a worship session tonight and I googled the words and found your blog.

Everyone has brokenness in his or her life. God gave me a vision right after I heard this song of the hour when Jesus died.. and I realised that brokeness was part of who we are. I was confronted with the fact that I was broken beyond belief, and none of the things I maintained in my life (friends, school, sports) would hold up if people knew how truly broken that I was inside..

I realize that Jesus was broken just like us. And that is truly humbling. That he now is perfect and blameless (and makes us blameless) shows us that we can become whole again. He gives us a guide with his own life: we come and die. When we accept this offer from our Lord, we are made whole. Some of it is still a mystery, but that is just what I God has showed me.

I hope this helps you, wherever you are. May God keep you.