lost and tired

we sang this song at ascent tonight. this is exactly how i feel. lost and tired. i wonder sometimes if some people are just prone to feel things deeper and longer than others. i think i'm one of them. and i think i've been holding on. holding on so strong my knuckles are white. i can't say i know what i've been holding onto, but i have. and i can tell because it's making me tired. i feel broken down by failed attempts at making things right in relationships that just aren't going the way i feel they should. broken down and tired by things i can't change. broken down by brokenness. but i'm a fighter. and i'm incredibly stubborn. so i keep holding on.

maybe all i need to do is nothing. stop fighting. stop holding on. stop trying. stop fixing. stop keeping it together. and just let the light shine in.

I've been holding on
I've been holding on
All that is inside me
Screams to come back home

If you feel lost
If you feel lost
Sing along
If you feel tired
If you feel tired
Sing along

If you feel lost and tired
This is your song

I've been broken down
I've been broken down
I ain't giving up
Love will come back around

Shine Your light
Shine it down on us
Let Your rescue come for us
We long to love

Shine Your light
Shine it down on us
Let Your rescue come for us now

And if you feel lost, sing along
And if you feel tired, sing along

Oh my God
Shine Your light on us
That we might live

Robbie Seay Band
Give Yourself Away
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forget

it's amazing to me how two consecutive days can feel so very different from each other. i constantly go in and out of this...

Feeling like i can't forgive but i want to
It's like i don't know how to live i'm afraid to
I used to think take them as they come without hesitations no
Now it's like my head is filled with lies and persuasions

As the sun begins to fall i hear her calling out to me she's sayin' hurry it's one more day gone

What i wouldn't give just to forget
So i can remember how to live again
I wanna live again

I am feeling dissonant and distracted
The toxic chemicals are spilling in my head and they're bleeding deadly reactions

And as the moon begins to rise he shows me all the colors that i'm hiding i'm hiding myself

What i wouldn't give just to forget
What i wouldn't give to get some rest
So i can remember how to live again
I wanna live again

Am i desperately losing this fight
When i should really be choosing my flight
Take me now

What i wouldn't give just to forget
What i wouldn't give to get some rest
So i can remember how to live again
I wanna live again

What i wouldn't give just to forget
What i wouldn't give to get some rest
What i wouldn't give just to forget
So i can remember how to live

Holly Brook
Like Blood Like Honey
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