pulling my hair out!

ok; i don't know about you, but listening to someone eat with their mouth open is sooooo annoying!...

so i'm sitting here at work and there is a volunteer sitting next to me who is snacking on skittles very loudly! to make matters even worse I can't go anywhere! i'm positioned in the area of my workplace people like to call the "petting zoo." (it's called this because it is an open workspace area with computers where people are able to walk thru all the time...) and to make matters even more worse (i know those words together aren't grammatically correct, sue me.) i have such a hard time concentrating as it is without the added, annoying distraction of this lady next to me smacking! if i knew how to record it and post it here, i would so that all of you could experience my misery....

....this is going to be a very long day. *sigh*

addicted

you know you're addicted to photoshop when...

You Know You're Addicted to Photoshop When...

You see the world with one eye and stock images with the other. When asked what the primary colors are, answer "RGB" You get the urge to 'fix' poor quality images. You start teaching your significant other to use this "evil" program and in the space of one afternoon convince them it's at least only quasi-evil in the face of PSP. You ramble about a breakthrough in the piece you're doing to people who have no idea in hell what you're talking about You ponder the meaning of existence without layers. You never leave the house without a digicam and notepad. You drop something and your brain tells you automatically "Ctrl-Z! Ctrl-Z!". When you realize it won't work, your brain tells you "Ctrl-Alt-Z! Ctrl-Alt-Z!" You're getting dressed for something important and you look in the mirror and realize you would look so much better if you could just tweak the levels a little and apply a slight gaussian blur. You stop on the street to rant about cheesey effects that should not be on professional posters. You scream out fonts as they appear on TV. You have dreams in "glowing edges" You're standing by the ocean and wondering who used Ocean Ripple. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to Photoshop.

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ex factor

It could all be so simple
But you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way
Forces you to scream my name
Then pretend that you can't stay
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin'
It ain't workin'
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy
This is crazy

I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself
As painful as this thing has been
I just can't be with no one else
See I know what we got to do
You let go and I'll let go too
'Cause no one's hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

Care for me, care for me
I know you care for me

There for me, there for me
Said you'd be there for me

Cry for me, cry for me
You said you'd die for me

Give to me, give to me
Why won't you live for me?

Where were you when I needed you?

Click here to listen to a clip of this song from itunes.

paul

here's a graphic I created for the teaching series at my church focusing on the life of the apostle paul. the photograph was taken by dking.

coffee

You are a Black Coffee

At your best, you are: low maintenance, friendly, and adaptable At your worst, you are: cheap and angsty You drink coffee when: you can get your hands on it Your caffeine addiction level: high

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

kelly

So if my last post wasn't enough for you, here's another few songs that have made it to my guilty pleasures music list...sad, I know. I guess the real reason I like this album is because of the lyrics...I could have posted the lyrics for every single song I relate to them so much; but I'll be nice and won't torture you that bad...I'll just post bits from some of my top favorites.

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway[...]
~Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway
Click here to listen to a clip of this song from itunes.

You gotta be out there
You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I'm waiting
'Cause there are these nights when
I sing myself to sleep
And I'm hopin' my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me
~Kelly Clarkson - Hear Me
Click here to listen to a clip of this song from itunes.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid [...]

I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
~Kelly Clarkson - Because of You
Click here to listen to a clip of this song from itunes.

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
~Kelly Clarkson - Addicted
Click here to listen to a clip of this song from itunes.

playlist

there's nothing quite like a great playlist for running....I find that unless I have a playlist of great songs to motivate me while I'm running I really can't make it...I know, I know, I could "push through it" and "it's all about motivation" the nike ad, "just do it" comes to mind........blah, blah, blah........whatever, with a capitol W. a part of my brain knows all that but nevertheless, it really does help to have great music with great beats to help me keep a good pace. i love it when i get in "the groove" while running where everything else fades away and it's just me, the pavement and the pace of my feet, one foot in front of the other moving to the beat of the song......oh, I just love that feeling so much. it's when I'm in "the groove" that I feel rejuvenated; like I could come home afterwards from running and do just about anything I want.....i don't really know how else to describe it but i feel the best about myself when I'm in "the groove." there aren't many moments of high self-esteem in my life that I experience on a regular basis but when I'm in "the groove" I feel it, and it makes the aches in my legs and my lack of breath all worth it in the end.

So, with that said, here is one of my newest playlists. I tested it out tonight as a matter of fact. I've arranged all the songs so that I have a 50 minute workout: one 5 minute song for warm up, then a full 30 minutes of faster paced songs that gradually increase in beats per minute, then about 15 minutes of slow songs that gradually decrease in beats per minute for cool down. I used to teach water aerobics at the community pool when I was in high school. none of the aerobic tapes were mixed with very good songs so I made up my own......i've been doing it ever since.

DISCLAIMER: Almost ALL of these songs are among my "guilty pleasures" music list. I promised I'd share more with you, so here you go! :) be nice to me.....


Me, Myself & I - Beyonce' - Dangerously In Love
Seven Days - Craig David - Born To Do It
I Don't Wanna Know - Mario Winans Ft. P. Diddy
Rock Your Body - Justin Timberlake - Justified
Naughty Girl - Beyonce' - Dangerously In Love
Roses - Outkast - Speakerboxx/The Love Below
The Way You Move - Outkast - Speakerboxx/The Love Below
Fill Me In - Craig David - Born To Do It
Toxic OK - Britney Spears - In The Zone - ADVANCE
Rise And Fall - Craig David Ft. Sting - Slicker Than Your Average
My Life - Mary J. Blige - My Life
U Got It Bad - Usher - 8701
Emotional Rollercoaster - Vivian Green - A Love Story

drowning

Well, as promised here is an example of a part of my final project for my Design Fundamentals class last quarter. :)This was the picture on the front cover of a notebook that we had to create - the contents were filled with what we had learned over the quarter.....maybe I'll post those too later.

This picture was also part of a previous assignment from the class where we were experimenting in types of texture. This is an example of visual as opposed to tactile/actual texture. I scanned in my hair, face, hands and then put them together in photoshop. :)

graphic

...here's a graphic I created for my church's weekend service where the talk was entitled "Christ in a Contrary Culture." the picture was shot by saimen.